Therefore, I thought that telling you of my situation would be a clear enough indication that I am totally unavailable and that any affair between you and I would not work. But, I guess I wasn't clear enough or that somehow I gave you the wrong idea...and for that I apologize also. I never ever wanted to 'play' with you..neither when we were together nor now. And, i can't help but feel guilty that you have had a hard time on my behalf.

But, as I said, I am in love with someone. That is it for me. This is the relationship that I was ready for, and somehow looking for - already when you and I met. With us, it was a case of inappropriate timing, i think. I was just coming out of a bad relationship. You were not yet over your last one. And, there was some kind of barrier between us for whatever reason. I think you are really very great and I was extremely attracted to you. We did have a very nice connection. And, the truth is, we could probably have it again. But, as it goes, things have moved in a different direction. I hope you can respect that.

Latest post alive

This next and last chapter of 2008 is ending soon. The Italian come back was altogether fine. I ll go back with the memory of the faces of my cousins´ children, two books by Magris and three by Braudel, some more kilos that I gained eating in here and a wonderful sense of belonging to there and not to here anymore.
Venice is (not) sinking is the title of a magazine; printed here from time to time it tries to hide the actual development of this (my) amazing and damned and doomed city.

Music wise it is a kind of boring period, not really keeping up with new releases. Ill do it in the next days.

Diana Krall - Love Songs
Kyuss - Welcome to Sky Valley
Feist - The Reminder
Feist - Let it Die
The Whitest Boy Alive - Dreams

Peace(in the Gaza strip and in Africa, first of all and to the whole of you too).

Uno ci crede anche che il tempo cura, cuce, cicatrizza e disinfetta e per la maggior parte delle giornate e dei mesi é vero...
Poi peró ci sono cose di cui non son capace, e quelle ed io cosí sono e cosí rimarranno...per quanto? Me lo sono chiesto cosí spesso che se lo faccio ancora mi sale il vomito...

sunday night in san sebastiano

I listen to Blonde on Blonde so that I may avoid to feel melancholic...

No Berlin before new year...a half emptied Venice for 5 more days instead...old friends, awesome food and a sense of growing laziness...

I have the feeling that something big will happen to me in this next 2009...

I am so relieved that this 2008 came to an end and that I am still on track...

I am not sure I will be surfing so much in the next days, so I wish all of you a pleasant end and a wonderful beginning...

Exit Interviews a sum-up

Et voilá

P J Harvey

Tired

"Boredom is the cause of everything"

Discussing does not equal behaving like parrots

Venice around 13.00 CET

I guess the thing is that my body understood the year was coming to the end and just gave up...
I am so exhausted and feel dizziness in my head since days...I called it fever but it is actually not...I would have liked to enjoy these last few days in Berlin since i am off from work(s) and studying until next year, but if I feel like the last 2 days, I guess I ll just sleep the whole day through...
Friends came over for the week-end and it has been fun: we did so much altogether...it is so easy to do stuff in this city, somehow...

Is there anybody who wants to come to the movies with me tomorrow night?

I am so tired, almost burnt out, and I guess that on top of that I am going to be sick before tonight...
I fly to Venice on the 24th...a year long away from Italy, a lot...

Take care you all.

EU2009

Fast dran

"If you have a Submariner Watch with you, the world will belong to you!"

...new frontiers of the spamming...my work addresse is oberated by shit, but some mails have so funny phrases on the "Subject" line...this one from this morning is awesome...when I read I was like:: "What?".

P.S. Submariner Watch is probably a registered trade mark, I apologize with the enterprise for the misuse: it won´t happen anymore.

The oldest and the youngsters

Three days of good purposes and 349 days of silence, a year.

More about Dostoevskij, less about Socialist planning

2 + 2 = 5

Pitseleh

I'll tell you why I don't want to know where you are
I got a joke I've been dying to tell you
The silent kid is looking down the barrel
To make the noise that I kept so quiet
I kept it from you, pitseleh

I'm not what's missing from your life now
I could never be the puzzle pieces
They say that god makes problems just to see what you can stand
Before you do as the devil pleases
And give up the thing you love

But no one deserves it

The first time I saw you, I knew it would never last
I'm not half what I wish I was
I'm so angry, I don't think it'll ever pass
And I was bad news for you, just because
I never meant to hurt you

Terms of the upcoming Czech Presidency of the EU

For those who are interested

It is not so easy to keep yourself updated with music when (1) your apple is so full that there is no place left for any extra torrent file, (2) you earn less money i.e. cannot buy so much new stuff...

So a small section of this blog, without title and completely personal, used to host a almost weekly top five of albums I had checked; now it turns into a songwise thing:
I guess the price goes to "Murder by Mistletoe" by The Felice Brothers this week...I almost cried on my wayback home on wednesday afternoon with this song, but I am very empfindlich lately...
Last week has been my "Misery is a Butterfly" week. The song "Melody" had the power to hypnotize me over and over again...
The week before that was all about this song by E.Smith and Pete Krebs: an astonishing concentrate of sadness...the way Marco likes it, you know.
Before that I guess it had been again about my personal Jesus, E. Smith, with his Demo of "Twilight"...
I had my quarter of an hour of E.Smith at the restaurant thursday and yesterday too (maybe even longer)...with the first try one girl actually started to weep a bit...too bad..but no way I am going to play Kaiser Chiefs because of that...

I thank people who post stuff or show in some other ways interest for this small blog.
Even if I am kind of skeptical of those who believe they can talk about everything because they know, I. Kant having been the very last and only one who truly could do it, I thank the anonymous about the Zizek contribution. I am listening to it.
I kindly recommend everybody to give a try to the chain of interviews George William Bush will have in the next weeks: he actually already started...you know, just for a record nowadays of what he would be able to say in 5 years.

What happens in Italy is so out of touch of any "rather functioning than not" system that I do not bother you any longer...The German Press is pretty good and objective in analyzing the Boot-country: if you know German you should read some analysis and then boycott the country (some other solutions?) and go for holiday somewhere... but I guess Croatia is not heaven as we would love to think.

I quit one job...you know in times of financial crisis I thought it was time to find myself some other form of occupation...it is going to be fine, isn`t it?

Blog readers and music makers

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Tief verknalt zu sein in der Zeiten des blöden Chatten

I wonder what she does during her busy days...and I have no ideas...sometimes I wonder whether she listens to the music I recently gave her...sometimes I try to believe that she thinks about me at least a tenth of the time I do it...sometimes I just hope she is not too tired, sometimes that she is so tired and fed up that she might come back to me...then there are those few seconds when she logs in, and for those few minutes I know what she does...and I feel good and at the same time an idiot to think that this small information means anything...